La Colère et La Négociation

05 October 2014




La Colère et La Négociation)
Anger and Bargaining
 acrylic and gesso over paper collage
A3 (11.7" x 16.5")
4 October 2014
The fifth painting in my series about grief.
The palette knife was my weapon of choice for this piece -- slashing and striking at the wet paint and gesso, calling out the inner demons of anger and bargaining, of which even now, there are still a few lingering in the darkest part of the sorrowful pit in my chest.  

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Tu me manque


Tu me manque
I miss you
acrylic and gesso over paper collage
A3 (11.7" x 16.5")
4 October 2014

This is the fourth painting in my series of grief.
 (It's also my second favourite in the series.)
I've had this image in my head for months,
and I think it lit the flame for the series, at large.


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Les Larmes II


Les Larmes II
The Tears II
acrylic and gesso over collage
A3 (11.7" x 16.5")
4 October 2014
The third painting in my series about grief.





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La violence des larmes


La violence des larmes
The violence of tears
 acrylic and gesso on paper
A3 (11.7" x 16.5")
4 October 2014

The second painting in my series about grief.
 . . . I really hate to cry.

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Les Larmes


Les Larmes
The Tears
acrylic, gesso, and varnish over paper collage
A3 (11.7" x 16.5")
4 October 2014

The first painting in my "Grief" series, which I began, yesterday.

I bottle-in my feelings, and tend to keep my emotional sufferings and traumas to myself. In the past, I was never comfortable with creating artworks as a means to express my most personal and sensitive emotions... it felt too much like letting the world read my diary... but, recently, I've come to terms with my need to make expressive works. The feeling of release which followed this painting spree was, indeed, quite liberating.

This is one of my two favourites from the series, thus far.


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La Douleur

La Douleur 
(The Pain) 
acrylic and gesso over paper collage
A3  (11.7" x 16.5")
4 October 2014

The first of the 6 paintings I did yesterday . . .

. . . exploring the my physical and emotional feelings of suffering. 
This one, La Douleur, as one might guess, about my back pain. 

I have a crooked spine, which has given me chronic and often debilitating pain, for as long as I can remember. As I get older, it gets worse... I've lost 2 inches in my height over the past decade, and there are 2 discs under compression. The upper disc, which is just between my shoulders, behind the solar plexus, sometimes pinches a nerve, which gives me searing and relentless pain that can last for months at a time.

Having been quite crushed under the feeling throughout September; I needed to release some of it through my brushes...

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